I’ll admit it, sometimes I really do stop and think out loud...”What’s my purpose in life?”
Why am I here?
I have no special talent! I wasn’t born with a silver spoon in my mouth! I can’t throw a football 50 yards! I can’t hit a golf ball 400 yards or throw a baseball 90 miles an hour!
And yet, I still manage to get my sorry ass up and out of bed everyday and for what? Really, what’s out there for me right now that’s so appealing, that something ‘moves me’ to such a point, that I find the strength to hit the off button on the alarm clock on my night stand?
Everyday it’s the same boring ass routine and quite frankly, I’m beginning to wonder what’s my motivation? What plan does God really have for me?
Ok! I know I did some things in my youth that I’m not proud of...but hasn’t the last 20+ years been enough ‘punishment’...or is there another 10 or so years left until I’m forgiven?
I don’t know...life just sorta ‘sucks’ right now!
And yes...I know...I’m the only one that change it...but sometimes, I ask myself...’what’s my motivation?’
Why should I try? Every time I try something new or different, my attention span just goes ‘kaa-poof’...out the door within a few days! I can’t stay focused and all I want to do is just crawl into bed and say ‘fuck it’...I’m done!
But I know I can’t...because in the back of my mind, I know that if I just keep getting up every day, I’m bound to finally find that ‘ah moment’...the one that’s going to light a fire up under my ass and set me onto the path that I’m supposed to be on at this point in my life!
It sucks having to wait all these years...but for now, it’ll have to do...
